Well, it has been a tough day. I found out yesterday that my tsh levels(thyroid) were very high. I am supposed to be at a 1.0 or lower and they came back at 60. I can't believe it. That is why I feel so bad. I have felt horrible for the past month or so and lately it has really been bad. I feel sad. I feel anxious and I worry. Not good feelings to have. I have a family to take care of and I am scared and sad all the time. I listen to sad music and miss my two babies I miscarried. I know I will see them in heaven, but I miss them. I wish I had dreams about them and could see them. I miss them all the time, but when my body is all screwed up the emotions come out and I feel like I just had the miscarriages.
This blog is going to be my journal of my life and the hurts and loves I go through on a daily basis. I sometimes feel like I shouldn't be sad. My husband and I are so truly blessed, but sometimes I can't help it. I will give more details of my past from today back as the blog goes on, just one day at a time.
Today I feel sad!!!
M
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