Well, today is a better day. I find if I keep busy and not sit too long I stay positive. I am glad there is a reason I was not feeling good and being down. I know it will take time, but I try to stay positive everyday.
To give a little background of my life I will start with marriage. My husband and I have been happily married for 11 years. We have 4 wonderful children here on earth and we miscarried 2 babes. They are waiting for us in heaven and I cannot wait to hold them. We had our first child when we were married only 2 years. It was a rough pregnancy and he came a month early. He did stay in the hospital for a week and after that he has been very healthy. He is our miracle baby for sure. At 16 weeks my water broke, but he was still safe in a sack of water, so we are not sure if there were two or if there was a small tear. To this day the doctors do not know. We then got pregnant again after only 7 months and were scared, yet excited. The baby didn't live long and the heart stopped beating at 6 weeks. My body did not actually miscarry the babe so we had a D&C and that was so hard. We then got pregnant again a few months later and were cautious yet excited. The doctors thought the first miscarriage was a fluke and it shouldn't happen again. We heard the heartbeat and thought all was good. We went for our 12 week appt and the nurse could not detect a heartbeat. She thought because my uterus is tilted it would be hard to hear it so don't worry. Well, a week later I started spotting. I went in for an ultrasound and there was not heartbeat. The baby had died at 8 weeks. It was so hard to know that the baby died 5 weeks ago. My body looked pregnant. I grew, but the baby did not. I was devastated. It was the lowest point yet. My mom thought I should have my thyroid tested. After the difficulties I had with my first pregnancy and then the two miscarriages I got it tested. It came back off and I was diagnosed with Hashimotos disease. It is a version of hypothyroidism. I started on medicine and was told to wait a few months before trying for a baby. It was a long wait, but finally we tried and we were blessed with a great pregnancy and a beautiful daughter. We were so happy and praised the Lord for what he has done. We were then blessed with two more beautiful daughters. After two miscarriages I never thought I would be so lucky to have four healthy children. I remember saying after the two miscarriages that all I ever wanted was to be a mom and if God saw that I was a mom of one than I would be ok. He blessed us with four on earth and two in heaven. God is good. I will continue my story another day.
Today is a good day!!!!
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